On Failing and Being Kind to Ourselves

*Removes Cobwebs*🧹🧹🧹🧹🙂🙂

Haya! 👋👋👋

It’s been a while yea. I know, I know.

It has just been some really busy  weeks/months and one of the key things I was trying to achieve was to complete some of the things I had uncompleted like the article on the Nigerian cybersecurity professionals salary . I am so glad that is done and the feedbacks has been great.

Anyways, while I was trying to get some work done and also complete the uncompleted things, I attempted an exam and I failed – Wheww

Like, I failed!🥹🥹🥹🥹

It was such a weird moment for me. This isn’t the first exam I am failing but I had not failed at something in a while so the whole of my body felt strange. It was so strange I could hardly feel myself in my own body 🥲.

A Short Back-Story

I had scheduled this exam some 1 month ahead and that was because I was almost done studying and all.

Two weeks to the exam, I was fully prepared – I know when I am ready for an exam even if I will still panic a little. In fact, I wanted to reschedule and move my exam date closer but there was no available date/time that suits me, so l left it as it is.

I knew I was Going to Fail😆.

A week to the exam, I had some couple of work to complete - The kind that chase you.

Note: I did not tell anyone I had an exam because I always just take my time to study and then write my exam in the middle of the night.

Anyways, back to the gist. On the D-day, which was a Friday, I had to work from the office, and I was mentally exhausted. By the time I was leaving, I was TIRED!! And that was how I knew I was going to fail.

I need to be in certain relaxed and calm state to think properly enough which I obviously wasn’t.

Here is the Funny Part🤣

I started the exam, and I was not understanding the question. Like:

“Sorry o, what does this even mean”.

“Where is this question from?”

“Are you sure this is the right exam I am taking” 🤣🤣

I was yawning and trying to stay awake as well. There I knew what “It is finished” means. I went through to the end regardless.

Learning Point for Me.

Failure will always feel like a setback, and it is fine to experience all of the emotions that comes with it. However, we need to be more kind and gentle to ourselves on days where things do not go as planned and expected.

We are all going to fail at something, what really matter are the lesson we pick from them and how we get back up to keep getting better.

Be Self compassionate.

PS – I did retake the exam and I am glad I did