I have had this in my draft for over 2 weeks . I thought to hit the send the button for the 1st day in 2023 .
I told someone how I was unmotivated sometime this year and he was shocked “with all your energy”? He said.
I understand the impression people have and I think it is a good time to share.
Are you feeling unmotivated?,
Do you think you are alone?
Do you think I have it all figured out and I do not have my “own days”?
We have all been there and some people are still there.
Sometimes in 2022 (I had to to edit from “Sometimes this year” because I am posting this in 2023 now😂😂😂😂😂) I woke up, sad and confused about my work. I was unhappy and I was not sure what the problem is.
It was a sad place and feeling to be in. Imagine waking up everyday and asking yourself “What is happening to me”? – Just because , “this is not me”.
In the middle of it all, I was getting the work done – I mean very well done because I was getting really good feedbacks from my manager(s) but I was not happy or excited about the work. I was showing up and people where still rooting for me.
I knew I had to do something about it before it eventually pulls me down. What did I do?
Write.
I picked up my pen and wrote about all the changes that has happened up until that moment. I asked myself,
What were you doing in the past months?
What are you currently doing?
What changed?
What motivated you previously?
What motivates you now?
What changed?
I think the toughest question for me what “what motivates you now”. I was not sure what it was and I asked a few people in my circle “What motivates you?” with the hope of getting some inspiration but it was not working. And then,
I Opened Up
Weeks gone by and I had not figured it out. I had to open-up to some people. I remember sending Confidence a message saying “I am at a roadblock. I am currently not sure what my motivation is anymore. I feel like I need help but not sure how or why”. It was one of the hardest messages I have had to send. I also spoke with Mrs. Ak because I was tired of feeling the way I was feeling.
I wanted to talk to everybody in my circle at that time, but I was already tired of talking (Talking threshold had finished because of work.)
The Interesting Part
Upon opening-up, I felt better (I might have cried a little bit) but it was a first step. I was going about, unmotivated. However, the feeling was different as it felt like a heavy weight has been taking off me.
How it Ended.
I took 2 days off work for an exam. The first day, I slept so well and when I woke up, I felt energetic. I did some extra preparation for the exam and of course, I passed.
The excitement of passing an exam was fulfilling. What was more fulfilling was ticking it off (I did not exactly have it as a goal for the year tho.).
In that moment of excitement, I was reminded of some of the things that motivates me.
Competence – I do not want to be basic, I want to be known for the level of competence I achieve in the work I do.
Impact – I want to positively impact lives, people, and organization.
Growth – I want to look back every time and be able to measure my growth. I want to better than I was.
Someone said to me “You are a solid star. Never forget that”. I Intend to always remind myself of this.
Thank You!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
Thank you to everyone that subscribed and read my newsletter in 2022. I hope it helps and encourage you in your journey.
Despite all the happening’s in 2022 (Good and/or not so good), I hope you had a great 2022 and I pray 2023 be better .
Cheers.
PS : If you ever sent me or an encouraging word this year, Thank you. It kept me going a lot of times.
"Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up."– Thomas A. Edison
As someone who looks up to you, this was really sad to read at some point. I literally feel selfish to know that my "how are you's" weren't really asking anything. I'm glad you got better in the end tho, thank you for all you did for me in 2022, I could never match it's value in words, but I'd keep on saying thank you.
As someone who looks up to you, this was really sad to read at some point. I literally feel selfish to know that my "how are you's" weren't really asking anything. I'm glad you got better in the end tho, thank you for all you did for me in 2022, I could never match it's value in words, but I'd keep on saying thank you.